He called me TAMAR last night meaning an edible date palm, a tree which survives desert hostile environmental conditions but is a sweet nourishing fruit and beautiful to the eyes...hmm my emotions rocked and danced to hear such sweet compliments.
I called him my BOAZ and i just went through the Hebrew meaning of the name and it means Swiftness, strength , really is he?
I got a bit disturbed this morning and the wrong thing to do is to run to a man to solve the equations. I asked my second in command and he gave me some answers that made me scream like a recalcitrant child who walks away more feeling dejected....LORD you are my ever present help in time of need and no human counsel can solve the emotional issues i feel now.
Its YOU and ME now, not me and some wise sounding counsel. I think i need to stop looking for human approval and affirmation. I will gladly take those stringent rules and regimented counsel based on human experience but LORD did you not say "Let all men be liars and ONLY GOD be TRUE so what do I do in this case? I do not want to disobey my leaders and carry some consequences that will affect my relationship with you and men? So what do I do?
I need a clear cut instruction, remember you told me to obey the words in PSALM 32 vs 8? You said I, Eno not men, will lead and guide you, you said; "I will guide you along the best path way for your life. I will advise you and watch over you.???". Lord instruct your loving daughter.I know there is a place for counsel but human counsel will not outclass God's.
The reason we do not hear GOD is because we prefer to listen to men, we are not so disciplined to go into the inner chambers to seek GOD. Esther went in to meet the king against laid down laws.She broke the rules because she was in a desperate situation which the king alone could solve.Let us go to the king in the inner chamber away from strange voices and the noise of buying and selling, human inclinations and assumptions.All MUST fade away till we can hear the KING like Esther did. She left Mordecai behind as well as her aides/maids, we told them to pray though she listened to Mordecai's advise, she only capitalized on what she heard and that pushed her into HIS presence.
I will enter in and put an end to all the approval am too used to,i will quiet my spirit until i CAN HEAR him. Isaiah 30: 15 says;
"The Sovereign LORD, the HOLY One of Israel says; "Only in returning to me and WAITING for ME(GOD not man) will you be saved.In QUIETNESS and confidence is your strength." AMEN.
I have learned in my little life here that our relationship with God is so personal that one thing could be right for one and it's not a conviction for another. Example, i eat bread and my brother thinks bread is a sin. Even though Paul had said that for peace and the faith of weaker ones, we should try our best at giving up what will cause another man to sin. If my bread will cause my brother to sin, i have to stop eating bread.But again, i ask, won't this amount to living for everyone's conviction? If everyone will have a conviction and compel every other person to do as he thinks then LEGALISM sets in, Man-made laws and systems will be erected etc.
As i woke this morning,i read 2 Peter and then i found out that the things which pertain to "life and godliness" are not mystical, they are not outside of us, they live in us, they are the life of the Spirit. Jesus is health to my bones, he is my food and water.Does that not speak of him being me and me Him?If i am to know Jesus better and better,does it mean he is a LAW written on paper?Or he is a spirit with LIFE? I believe my knowledge of him on a daily basis must be birthed in me(that the mystery) just as Mary bore Jesus....by the power of the Most High and the power of the Spirit.Jesus is not a written down law, he is a spirit.
My thoughts are raving and roving, so don't mind if its sounding "jumbled up" and divided into forks- LOL....sorry friends. But in conclusion on all matters, llet MAN MADE laws not override the mind of God. Let us ALWAYS ask God what he expects us to do,seek GOD's will in every matter like mine, i am asking GOD what to do in this "anonymous, nameless " matter, sorry i have not mentioned the details of the matter plaguing my mind. I think I am just worrying and I sense that i should LIVE by FOLLOWING THE SPIRIT. I will talk about this matter comprehensively in days to come just stay tuned and don't feel crucify me for writing a script filled with suspense-i no bi film director or actor, abeg no vex people!!!
I implore my friends to plsssssssssssssss pray for me to hear GOD and not man.GRACIAS!
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