Deep thought

Lord my cry is desperate, longing for your touch.
Father, though you pardon my misgivings, weakness and judgment, you're my emotions, you put in me a feeling to cry, wail,think and flare.
You put love in my innermost parts, its part of my makeup.
Father, only you can comprehend my dire, frantic need for a man: His touch and feel!
Lord my innocence you foreknow, my weaknesses you foresaw. You know when i can not stand the tides and you know when my strength wears off seldom times;
Father, you know how impatient I've been and how my innocence has worn an expiration date.
My Daddy, i cry and cringe in guilt and shame when my walls cave in for one peck, an extended hug and some pampering.
Lord, strengthen my resolve and come to my prompt rescue. Do not let me give away all I have kept for the best time in my life.Let me not fall or falter till I'm in my safe Haven,
AMEN!

The Eno i used to know

Yesterday,I spent a better part of the day at work reading the blog "In my dream It was Simpler" and I did not know some of the events of each lady got into my blood stream making me a bit vexed at relationships,people,life etc.I began to react and ask questions based on the disappointments and pain I read in the book .i.e ladies who never met faithful men they could settle down with.And being an unmarried young lady who has spent a greater part of my life as a "Church gurl", seeking to please God and keeping my body(though tempted by devious men), i began to question my decisions to love, i even wondered if I am getting it right this time?

The "Eno i used to know" panics at people's failures, "fears their fear" and lives by assumptions. That Eno has a way of believing the reports of other men as though they'd happen to her and she tailors her life to fit people's.

BUT where would the word of God be effectual if Eno believes every story she hears?Has she forgotten that THE JUST SHALL LIVE BY FAITH, Has she forgotten that she MUST WALK BY FAITH AND NOT BY SIGHT, and that she is a royal priesthood, a holy nation and a peculiar person?That is different from every other man including her siblings and parents?

The "Eno I used to know" found out that she is somewhat opinionated, insistent,and argumentative .She throws tantrums like a spoiled child and could be easily provoked to the point where she throws hot, hard missiles.

Lord you need to help Eno in marriage.She does not have to carry any one's experience into hers.She desires to be a good wife and not live by the today's trends.She has heard in recent times how marriages are a far cry from dating(nods in agreement),she listens to all the lies about marriages and ruminates on the divorce stories forgetting that her parents and siblings are happily married. What a life!

Lord, Eno does not know how to be a wife after all, she's never been a wife(but a gurlfriend)so make her ready to be One-a virtuous woman at that!To not just read "Gary Chapman's" theories and teachings and all those marriage propositions yet can not practice even one theory.
She never always knows she is saucy, tough, sarcastic and insensitive until she is dealing with a man she loves.Eno could submit a while till she grows in the relationship then she starts proving heady and taking undue advantage,flinging words without caution.

Lord one last thing is Eno has always been a sister and doesn't know she could be extremely mushy around a man she loves.Lord please help her not to throw caution to the wind but eat the fruits of self-control and patience.She must not think the high walls she built in Uni will help her for it is not by power or might but by the Spirit.That she will flee all appearances of evil and youthful lust.Lord Eno sincerely needs your help because the gurl we used to know was principled, sensitive and at times naive.Lord keep her to that night she bears MRS....AMEN!

Knowing LOVE...

IF LOVE
… Were meant for one day,
I wonder why Jesus came for all time?
If all the lingerie, candies and candle dinner
Were preserved for the second month of each year
Then there would be no reserves for honeymoon and all year long.
If all the intimacy and lovely words were hoarded for one day,
What happens to the three-six-four days in which people
Yearn to be embraced and pampered?
You call it love isn’t it?
When he buys all the red dresses and roses for the night?
But why the sudden hate and abuse when he dumps you?
Why rein those curses?
I just wonder
…why love turns to hatred after the months and years of commitment?
Well if love were all about kissing and caressing,
Where does the love on the cross relinquish to?
How can humans dictate the pace of real love created- no not just created-
But existing in the Almighty?
The One who taught all men to truly love,
to love the offender and the hatchet bearer.
Why would I symbolize a day to prove love
when at each doorstep I ascend I see
Lonely eyes, Hurting hearts, sullen bodies
Craving to taste, embrace and hold unto everlasting love?
The red rose won’t put make sense to that crippled child
holding out a plate to receive one coin for a day’s meal
neither will a beggar skip to the rhythm of love.
How can one ever extend a prom invite to the sick and helpless?
Why would I decorate my lover with all the red gifts around town, claiming
to be head over heels for him,
when in the next month I’m tired of all the love I had for him?
Does it make sense to compose the most sensational, romantic poem for her,
When I’m sure I really do not mean them?
Why should we look into each other’s eyes and chant the sacred word, “I Love you”,
with deception obviously lined on our pupils?
Why would two lovers paint the town red,
And turn envious heads to their show of love,
Only to turn fighters,
And I hear them say, “We were not meant for each other”

Well it is so ideal to love and be loved
But I am only a silent observer,
Perhaps a “wonderer”, pondering
on the intrigues of love and life.
The salient truth is,
True love can only come through knowing Jesus.
A slave master understands conditional love
And his slave is an approval addict.
Humans know to love when the going is good and
Learn to hate when the chips are down.
Man is so quick to punish the offender
And passes approval on the “just”.
Man’s love is fallible and controlled.
Some love with difficult to satisfy conditions,
Others will either not love again or love to hurt.
But His love has no boundaries and lays no claims to color, race or tribe.
Tis’ in Him I learnt unending love given at the expense of death,
Love not reserved for the perfect, the rich and skillful;
That love I earned in deep sin.
His love cannot be fathomed nor will I compare it to a lover man.
God’s love looks beyond a day of roses and scented candles,
His love flows like an endless river and in His love; he rescues the worst of men.
In all my life,
He is the only lover that keeps to His terms without breaking a soul.
I have found in His love;
“Neither do I condemn you, for I see righteousness and hope, and I call you by name”
Tis His love that heals pain and comforts sorrow.
His love holds me through the night and walks into the morning.
I’m speechless in a love that counts not my wrong, chastises my excesses and won’t let me slip away.
That is the everlasting love found only in Jesus!




P/S: We tend to celebrate LOVE on Valentine's day and Christmas alone while so many like me and you need to be AFFIRMED daily and shown deep love.Let's dare to Love as Christ instructed us to...GOD BLESS!

DUAL PERSONALITY...?

One reason we divide our lives into the secular and sacred, private and public has a lot to do with our personalities. Most people live dual lives- there’s the church “pious” life and the work/ everyday (probably abusive, wild, aggressive, truant, irresponsible, dishonest) life. We put up a lovely, masked appearance (theatrics) and well acted out life for the world to admire yet our private lives are murky- we’ve got skeletons sprawled around- and dingy. Our dual lives bar us from representing who we truly are in God. We want to blend into “every” dough and mingle in every goblet of wine. On Sabbath, we dress in our best ironed out CASSOCK but we’re the sole originators (and DJs) of the wild Friday night party. We simply do not want to miss out on anything in life; we don’t want the world to describe us with the scruffy, fanatics…so we re-brand our “Jesus” to fit into our duality.
Charles Swindoll says, “I don’t see life divided into public and private, secular and sacred. It is all an open place of service before God…"I believe that we are so easily affected by societal pressure, a lot of us suffer an identity crisis so we ape the "Joneses" to gain man’s approval. We strive to meet up with the world’s standard hence the dual nature. The double standard or personality questions our integrity and truthfulness. Meanwhile GOD desires that everything we do- I mean everything including trading stocks, addressing customers, selling in the market, punctuality to the marketplace- brings him glory.

Today’s world instigates man’s superficiality which we see on our TV screens, billboards, shows and the like. They propagate unrealistic lives like the “bling-bling", the labels (and designer clothing), the red carpets, name them. So we model them and celebrate men (and women) who are stunning on the red carpet but quite frankly suffer from broken marriages, drugs, sexual abuse, alcoholism, depression and extremely terrible “off the scene” afflictions. So we see a society subtly promoting dualism lest we appear too weak hence the plastic surgeries face lift and make up to hide the faults and mask the pain.

But GOD created each person a unique being and made each of us holistic (and complete) beings. Though we have loads of weaknesses, phony habits, terrible character flaws because we are not perfect, GOD sees the best in us. All the human approval is short lived because our lives are eternally responsible (and answerable) to Him- that aspect of truth no man can alter. He prefers we live simple, sincere and truthful lives no matter what men think of us. I agree that if we display our weaknesses to men- or the public- they will scorn at us and see us as failures. Most times we fear losing the approval accorded to us by men so we put up the dual life. But I strongly believe that dual living is not only hypocritical but misleading, dangerous and destructive.



I recommend that we (Christians) either stay in or out and stop playing games, and stop the theatrics- its fake! Let’s be men and women of sound doctrine, enviable character to the world and that means upholding godly integrity and uprightness in the most trivial things we engage in- obey traffic rules (avoid one-way and turning at wrong junctions created by bike men), balance our scales, treat our jobs and colleagues with passion and respect, etc. If we open our hearts to GOD’s leading, he will point out those areas we must stand out for his name’s sake even if we are regarded by the crowd as cowardly and unpopular. Let’s desist from trying to be “wanna- bee’s and “feeling among” to gain the world’s applause, let our lives be a rare fragrance. As hard as these path maybe to tread -because of the societal decadence-, GOD needs and equips willing men, die- hard people that will STAND OUT for him so choose you which nature you will wear…the DUAL or…?

Be the God kind of person!

MY OWN GOD

Everyday I wake up wondering how man exists without God.
I mean a close knitted intimate and romantic, loving God?
I imagine how I’d walk thro the lane of a lonely life without Him?
He is my rising up, my breath, my prayer and my song.
He is my teeth when I brush at dawn, my clothes, my food and my water.
He is my Life, my Lord, my Savior and my doctrine.
He is my inspiration, my gist partner, my workbook, my opinion and my final WORD.

I call Him my kinsman redeemer, my overall “Husby”- the Husband of the wonderfully adorned bride- The Church-
On my office desk He’s my companion, my hands and my feet, my ears and mouth;
He’s all the wisdom, knowledge and understanding for the day’s task,
And only He can take my “shit”.
What a GOD! So adorable that only few words of mine can express His person.
I call Him my righteousness and my peace in a world of turbulence and incessant sorrow.
He is the sun in my horizon,
He’s the star that leads and guides me through the dark night.
He is in me as I am in Him.
He is my Glory, my rest and the lifter of my head.
I go to sleep knowing He’s my bed, my pillow, my blanket, my Watchman and my All.
What a God and a Lover he is to me.

At A GLANCE

...It was you!
You came along and I clearly heard its you forever.
My head said NO but my heart could not resist a YES!
The Almighty says we're meant to be,and I'm accepting you-by the minute.

We're sync-ing this love together.
At a another Glance,
I know it's you
no one else
But you and always YOU.
I love you My Pearl!

Lunch Break

Its been a sober day.

I stared into my cupboard wondering what to wear to work.I felt frustrated and thought the devil was playing some gimmicks with my joyful morning.You can imagine jumping out of bed and singing to the LORD only to realize there is just no matching shirt or pants to fit...And i sang a comforting song;

"Count it all joy even when it seems so hard to,know he'll never give you more than you can handle"

You may say,all this for work clothes?I say YES!God is equally concerned about my spiritual growth as well as my physical well-being.He will be grieved if I revealed the "seductive" parts and I am sure people will frown at that as well.He will not be glad to see me in rags or some faded clothes because He is aware I interface with Customers everyday and I was not employed to look scruffy but give my company a good image.You know most Nigerians believe in the slogan; "DRESS TO BE ADDRESSED".

So God is more detailed than my earthly father.My sleeping and rising are connected to His will;my walking,talking and carrying out daily tasks are in line with His purpose so which one do we leave out?Job said in His speech; "SO He will do for me all HE HAS PLANNED,He CONTROLS MY DESTINY"- Awesome God.

I actually settled with God today that if He said he will lead me and guide me in the best pathway for my life, then he should supply adequate number of clothes and also define my fashion style.I could actually become a fashion stylist for people and refuse to wear some Western labels(there is ABSOLUTELY nothing wrong with people who use Western labels). I really do not want to live another man's life or try to tailor my looks to people's.It wont be the ENO people have always known and I will be slipping into Saul's body armor(remember David felt uncomfortable in them). I love to look good and confident to God's glory.

And that takes me to something i have found interesting...wearing another man's identity .i.e doing things the way another man wants us to...APPROVAL-addiction.Do you know second hand clothes feel and look good when we can not afford brand new ones? People celebrate Tokunbo cars, equipment, gadgets, etc because they are affordable and i notice we settle for the second best most times.I used to wear second hand clothes and those are clothes worn by another lady.We celebrated and felt so good in them.I have even heard a friend say that its better to drive a second hand car,saying it trains one to handle a brand new car.Hmm,i hate to hear such a misconstrued belief system borne out of years of lack.POVERTY i call it!

So it is when we depend on second hand information instead of being an eye witness or being an accurate "first source of information."A news reporter is privy to first hand info which he could decide to twist to suite his listeners. Look at CNN International Correspondents in war-thorn countries, they see and disseminate,they are involved and risks their lives to get first hand testimony for their listeners.How are we sure some visuals are not made up?Yes,we can not all be reporters but in some cases,i prefer to see and hear for myself.

Let's take a look at the Bible,Moses encountered God face to face. He would go into the mountains and God would give him commands,laws,etc for the Israelites and he would come as a news reporter.Sadly, the children of Israel would never go into the mountains,they feared to see God/his glory.The quivered and shook when God came to them and ran away.God gave Moses all the pattern and specification for the temple, the priestly duties and their garbs(garments).They never heard God face to face ,they relied on Moses,ONLY Joshua dared to go close-remember he was Moses' assistant.

Thank God Jesus rolled away the stone...at his death, the curtains of the temple were torn completely so we CAN ALL APPROACH HIS THRONE AND OBTAIN MERCY,even FAVOR(Hebrew 4 vs 16).In case we believe God called only Moses as a judge and law giver,you maybe right but that applies to the old order.Today, we are called and chosen for the harvest and we all are kings and priests.

I brought up this topic because I feel humans in general love human applause, endorsement and approval.We still want to return to the days of Moses,where a Pastor,Church Leader approaches God for us.There was a time the High Priest went into the inner courts while the great crowd stood outside waiting...See Luke 1:8-10But now, we approach God face to face. When we wait for men to seek and see God for us,we will run with their impression and that could affect everything we do.Some perfect examples could be getting a job or finding a life partner.An elderly sister and friend told me weeks ago that I should not wait for anyone to "hear" God for me on the marriage matter and I strongly agree. Should we despise counsel?No!.Should we operate as loners?No.There is a place for wise counsel but do not be too lazy to wait on GOD to know his mind.

"THAT IS WHY WE HAVE A GREAT HIGH PRIEST WHO HAS GONE TO HEAVEN,JESUS THE SON OF GOD. LET US CLING TO HIM AND NEVER STOP TRUSTING HIM.

THIS HIGH PRIEST OF OURS UNDERSTANDS OUR WEAKNESSES, FOR HE FACED ALL OF THE SAME TEMPTATIONS WE DO, YET DID NOT SIN.

SO LET US COME BOLDLY TO THE THRONE OF OUR GRACIOUS GOD. THERE WE WILL RECEIVE HIS MERCY, AND WE WILL FIND GRACE TO HELP US WHEN WE NEED IT."

God is a father, and he has no favorites.In my little experience,it grieves him when we ALWAYS run to men.He loves to hear us,he loves to see us trust him with our information, our weaknesses and fears.He wants to see us face to face as we ask even the most stupid questions. Man may advise as it pleases him,he'll use personal experience, head knowledge and manipulate the situation to suite his judgment.Ask that man if he really sought God keenly for you?And feel some do not have time.

Let us refrain from running with Saul's armor, let us remain who we are in Christ,and give God the opportunity to dress us in our own unique garments. We identify with David's story because the Lord used the foolish things of this world(stones and a sling) to confound the wise.Let us not wear another man's identity or conviction.Dress to fit YOU!

Sorry people,seems i talk a lot these days,let me not bore you with vain repetition and sign off here.Take a bite of this rich sandwich and see you soon with more news. Cheerio!

We are God's temple

You are important to me and I to U.
We are God's House,
You are me and I'm you;
We are God's temple.

You're a Gatekeeper,I'm a singer,
She is God's office and He's a craftsman
We are important to each other;
We are the lintels and the tower
We are God's temple.

Some are administrators while others are cooks and charity workers'
We all are occupied with His work.
Some are "encouragers" and others Intercessors;
We fill the vacuum in the House
We are God's temple.

Some are Apostles and others Prophets
We are called and chosen for the harvest.
Some also are Shepherds and others Teachers
We complete the building.

While all can not function in same ministry,
We all are God's kingdom and His temple.
God has called some as tailors,others as supports,
We are LIVELY stones in the temple.

Some will write epistles and quite a number will go to the fields(missions)
We are relevant to God and His people.

Some will plant the seeds and others will water the flock
But God makes the increase.
We are God's temple and God's House.


He gave the pattern and diagram and our duty is to build as he commands.
We fill the cracks in the House and seal all leakages;
We belong to each other,you for me and me for you.
We are God's temple.

We have One Kingdom,
One House,
One body,
One Lord,
Only One Lord,
One faith;
One Baptism,
Only One God and Father over all.
We are God's temple.

The Trigger

Bonjour mes Amie...
It was a short weekend for me,i spent most of Saturday and Sunday on the road.On Saturday, i stayed in bed till....and of course stayed in God,did chores et al. Then I got set for a birthday bash(a small boy anyway) and i did not get home till about 7pm. Sunday was also like it-from fellowship with God's people to a marriage Introduction and I must confess,i usually have "work phobia", i really do not look forward to Mondays this days. God help me.Its either i need a change of job or some break. I have suddenly hated the 8 to 6 on one spot.I think I need a more versatile job or a better attitude to my present job.God will sort me out!!!

Well well, my people, lets start this week waiting on God and seeking His face for our nation. I am too sober to cook a sumptuous meal so I propose some fruit fast. I have prepared a rich,succulent bowl of fruits for all to share and balance it with fresh,cool water.

Nigeria, Oh our great Nigeria.The home of great minds yet living as "ICHABOD", a nation blessed with plenteous resources but corruption and all kinds of evil announces us.I am usually pathetic when we-I mean- God's people do not have a firm grip on the nation and can not predict the next step in government.We are either uninterested, blind, ignorant or absent minded .When I listen to some Radio and TV interviews, most people condemn Nigeria as hopeless.If you meet the average Nigerian about the happenings, all you hear is;"I don't know for them o! or "abeg naija no concern me o".

It reveals the state of ease and laxity among God's people-I am shamefully included. We spend majority of our time praying for our needs,wants, pursuing selfish desires,talking and praying about the progress of the church and criticizing the leaders.We sit around finding faults and poking fingers at "lawless" leaders, cursing and abusing our leaders.We live in bitterness, angst,depression, fear and the likes.We even claim to have lost hope in the nation and we do not anticipate any changes,we believe Nigeria is in a state of despondency and decadence that will never be repaired.We believe Nigeria will never emerge as a great nation.

We live without receiving a word from the Lord, we are oblivious to God's mind for the nation not to talk of praying.We feel God is not interested in the nation thinking all that matters to Him is salvation of our souls and I ask;"What of salvation of the soul called Nigeria?"Have we forgotten that God was concerned about physical Israel and still is?.

Remember ELIJAH WAS A MAN OF LIKE PASSION,who lived in a failed and corrupt government headed by a pagan King, Ahab yet he did not sit around like a hopeless man. In fact 1 Kings 17 brings into limelight this man who BOLDLY- such boldness a greater number of us do not have,we choose to play safe and cower in fear and cowardice.We loathe confronting the obvious leaving it to God- told Ahab that as a result of your sin,God has withheld rain in this land for...UNTIL I GIVE THE WORD. A mere man speaking with such audacity, not minding the consequences? The last time Pastor Tunde Bakare and company matched against the government,Christians(both church goers and Christlike men)openly criticized and disassociated themselves from him yet he confronted a just course and today, Bakare's revolution against Yar'Adua's government worked.

How do we think the blacks in America gained recognition if there was no MARTIN LUTHER KING? Go back in history and read on: "Wilberforce"and some others who fought for a just course,see the effect. Pastor Sunday Adelaja did same in Ukraine(Please look for his book "Church Shift")

People,Elijah spoke with such authority and if you are not close to your Bible, let me quote some verses for you-it may set fire in your wailing bones,Ha-ha!Read with me;
" Now Elijah, who was from Tishbe in Gilead, told King Ahab. "As surely as the LORD, the God of Israel lives-the God whom I worship and serve- there will be no dew or rain during the next few years unless I GIVE THE WORD"
Folks, We posses so much authority and power but we perish for lack of knowledge.Most times, we are carried away by our church buildings, sweet sounding church services and all others.If we were in Communist nations,I am so sure our mentality would change because we won't have citadels and Tabernacles with "Comfi", cushioned chairs and A/cs to cross our legs in.
We are made to believe that God called us out of the world so we rarely pray for the peace of Jerusalem. King David did when he said;"Pray for the peace of Jerusalem(Psalm 122) and Jesus wept over Jerusalem.Why won't we give Nigeria our time and prayers?Why can't i wake up at midnight and travail over Nigeria like I do for my dire needs?God has a heart for the nations, its his idea,his passion,his creation and all you can think of.God owns the nations,he says;"Only ask,and I will give you the nations as your inheritance" .So its God's idea.

I do not dispute that there are more than seven thousand wailing and travailing for NIGERIA.I believe many are passionate for a change.I am only addressing those who sit around speaking evil of the country.

May God open our eyes to the state of anarchy we find ourselves.Our present leaders will not do any better because they are callous,Godless men without a servant heart for Nigeria but since the government is still in the coffers,let us therefore ARISE and pray for Nigeria.Pray for YOURSELF cos if you became a leader, you may not be less than a dictator.Pray till the nations of this world becomes the nations of our God and Christ;pray till justice becomes the order of the day;pray till he rules in all spheres,pray till He institutes men like David on the throne-Ref:2 Chronicles 7 vs 14.

Pray; "Oh,God hear the cry of your people,we are under the bondage of taskmasters like the days of Egypt and we desire our liberty in all sectors of this GREAT NATION"We repent as 2 Chronicles 7 vs 14 says and we look to you to judge the nations yet in mercy.
Prophesy: Lord the kingdoms of this world will glorify you all our days.All sectors will speak of your glory and greatness.
Nigeria shall flourish again, we shall ARISE AND SHINE for the Light of God is upon us...Nigeria, beautiful things are spoken of you, amen.
Nepa, Telecomms,NIPOST, NASS and other sectors shall receive the life of the spirit amen.They shall flourish and bring forth light amen.

I pray God to open our eyes to the needs of our dear nation.Even if we sojourn in a foreign land, Nigeria still runs through our veins.God has a purpose for our Nigerian birth and nationality.We owe NIGERIA our prayers and commitment.That will start when we change our attitude to this nation i.e speak great things of her, and believe in her. Though she feels like a failed marriage, let's work hard to keep our love for her and change will come.



Maintain a right attitude and be accountable to her: Do not dump refuse on the road, queue and do not jump the line, do not throw stuff on the streets and in gutters, do not cut corners or break traffic rules and do not pay a bribe,etc.

God bless Nigeria, God bless AFRICA amen.

P/S: I hereby recommend the movie THE BOOK OF ELI by DENZEL WASHINGTON as a MUST watch.It has Biblical allegories and story...Eli,Ichabod Israel.

TEACH ME TO LOVE...

...The one who hurt me a fortnight ago,
And to forgive the old coot that striped my heart bare leaving me in the pond of shame.
Teach me to bury the age old hatchet against my flesh and blood and
And to not hold unto the ideologies I grew up with.
Help me to hug my papa, mama and oldies and truly mean the warmth
Take away the curse lining my lips and wipe the abuses on the tip of my tongue
Just waiting to fall on my old lovers.

Help me,
To lay aside the sardonic smiles I received from childhood; to forget the spanks, smacks-
And all the missiles released on our generation.
Teach me how to love even when I hear sarcastic and spiteful words.
Help me build the walls of real care and deep concern.
Clean up my murky well, for in there exist bitterness, strife and past wounds.
Tidy me up and adorn me with a new heart for a Judas, a Thomas and a Saul
Make me a heart of a Savior and Lord.
Make me the Lover, to extend the fellowship of selfless, heartfelt romantic service to men and brethren; to truly look out for the hurting, to ease burdened hearts, without condemning them.
Give me grace to love my brethren, buddies and oldies always bearing it in mind;
“Offenses" shall surely come, man is fallible hence expect his imperfections and disappointments,
but to hope only in the Infallible- Providence”

AM at peace

Huh people,good morning and how did the night go?
Am so sure you took heed to my words yesterday?My brother still reminded me this morning that to sleep and wake up is GRACE and to have food on your table is GRACE!God gives his beloved sleep,so be GRATEFUL.


Last night was so emotional and perhaps "mushy" but "we" (not my brother but my bro,LOL)had to obey God and the church leaders....You know when "orders" are given on a matter and you feel they are hard?That is exactly my take on this matter.But we agreed to follow peace with all men, we accepted to play to the sound of their music and allow GOD fight for us.
Yesterday,we laid down "our Isaac" and resolved to WAIT till GOD gives him back to us alive.It is easy to make all these quotes but the processes seem long and painful.It's a TIME to sow in tears and if i may add, last week GOD actually told me audibly;
"HE MAKES ALL THINGS BEAUTIFUL IN HIS TIME"
In my interpretation, i thought to work out the timing till its beautiful to my eyes.But the ways of God are past finding out,his ways are certainly not our ways and I acknowledge God in this matter knowing fully well that He will make a way in the wilderness.


Lessons learned: Follow Gods timing on every matter
Trust GOD wholly and allow him do the fighting
WAIT,REST and BE STILL...He knows the end from the beginning and he will bring a perfect,victorious end.


God delights in total submission. Imagine a heady,shrew wife who constantly flouts her husbands orders?God took me through Colossians 3 v 18;"You wives MUST submit to your husbands as is fitting for those who belong to the LORD". I wondered why God took me to that part of the scripture when I'm partially single("partially cos am on a marriage journey now, smiles)and not yet a wife, though am one in the making, still undergoing the dating to courtship game. Anyway, i imagined God as my husband(for now,HE is), who requires my submission to his will and obedience.

You know we like to add to God's mandates so we echo "permissive will and partial obedience". In my opinion, there is no permissive will and partial obedience.Its either we do His will or refuse to do his will; and its either obedience or disobedience. Therefore, most times, we seek HIS will concerning a matter, and when that will is not pleasing to our senses,we come up with excuses and try to force God to play along with our fleshy, myopic desires.We then feel God permits us to do as we think hence PERMISSIVE will. In my case i have heard God say; "Leave this place of "worship" and i wanted every reason in my "dumb" head to stay there.I gave God every reason why he should accept my timing and understand my reason to stay on....Permissive will,we call it. It's either GOD's will or our selfish disobedient mind which God lovingly excuses till we accept HIS WILL...its always PERFECT, without a guile or stain!

So from Colossians 3, i am learning to SUBMIT to His will as it's fitting to the Lord.I imagine that it will prepare me to take my boo and husband to be's orders.I also know that obeying completely puts the devil in his bottomless pit cos he has no strings to hold on to.It makes GOD glad that we do as he says.

Let me quickly add: God does not force a thing on anyone. We are entitled to our choices but there is just GOD's will and no permissive and perfect will we sometimes preach as a doctrine. Man has his will, God has HIS and his own is complete and final(there is no shadow of turning nor divisions)...

It's almost day time, so let's get to the table and gulp some food,I am not fasting today and my appetite is healthy after "shitting" toxins and all...LOL!
(At the breakfast table)...Let's ask the LORD to help us go beyond this present realm till we are seated with Him in Heavenly places, till we are in HIS WILL, till we see Him face to face.
I am counting this pain as temporary for it produces a far greater glory.I am not just speaking from Head knowledge but from the bowels of living waters steaming,brewing within me.God is using this issues to process HIS will, he is preparing me for a permanent glory and I am sure I will come out as gold. Then I will boldly say; "The Lord has done GREAT things, bless His holy name". Out of my once murky wells will flow clean waters, God will make rivers of living waters stream forth amen.

*Watch this space because this piece serves as a reminder....

Let us receive our meal with THANKSGIVING;

"O Lord you are our God, forever and ever Oh Lord your word is settled in Heaven.You remain God who knows all things and we are grateful for the peace in our hearts.We know that ALL things work together for the good of those who LOVE you and are the CALLED according to your will.Have mercy on us when we disobey you and twist your will.Thank you for receiving us in LOVE and showing us the way to your GLORY.Thank you LORD.....(All say, AMEN!).

Please feel free to eat LAVISHLY, there is so much to eat and drink,you're free to serve yourself!!!

Now the day is over

Oh boy ehen, I thought i could hang out with you folks at Lunch break but you won't believe I was on the road in busy eko-Lagos in Western Nigeria- trying to do some office deals.I was dead sleepy that I could not read the novel i carried with me.My "dear bosom" friend has succeeded in helping me spend less time on my BB(Blackberry)and I was missing that friend so much and all i did was think of my friend.
I always wish at times such as this I am wearing "Am married" on my heart and hand, but I thank God all the way..I sincerely owe my SINGLE MOMENTS to him even though he knows the temptations i have to flee from, the ones he averts like the two men who tried inviting me for a night out yesterday. At least i was bold enough to let them know I am an UNUSUAL girl who can do without clubbing and hanging out with every man that crosses my carpet. I prefer to lie in my bed reading or dozing than follow them in the name of enjoyment....its so temporary abeg.Those men look soooooo set in their ways, old enough to be called "Uncle" and too old for my kinda man abeg.I no fit shout ooooo(popular Lagos slang), make dem comot o with their sweet coated lies ooooo.LOL! Thank God for helping me ooooo....

Pls I am not condemning those "sit-outs" o! But with some phony men,NO WAY.I am so quick to judge the motive behind those phony treats and some innocent gifts etc.These men I met looked really phony so i "jump am pass". I will hang out with people who will add to me, whom I can fellowship with and share deep revelations. I will hang around MY FRIEND(my boo) and family.I mean, i want to meet with people who are passionate about GOD and the nations even Nigeria.

I am reading a book by SUNDAY ADELAJA called "CHURCH SHIFT" and I am getting really wild at the depth of God's mandate for His people.The fact that God called us to go to nations and preach the Gospel, to build nations and institute His kingdom upon the earth. I will use my spare moments to prepare myself for these GREAT COMMISSION
instead of whiling away precious time.Never forget that the kingdom life is not a boring life and the kingdom life is an ACTIVE life with no time for frivolities and unnecessary activities we have wound our lives with. I desire to do my Father's will, that was Jesus' heartbeat on the earth. May HE alone HELP me to be so concerned about the things that make HIS kingdom and His righteousness.

Well I have a plate of doughnut and some fresh juice to share with those not dieting like me.I am such an occasional "dieter", i fluctuate like NEPA(power suppliers) and I have some pound(not money o) of weight as the consequences, sufficiently added unto me....But never mind, i did some exercise this morning and I will soon return to the stringent diet rules.

Well, work closes now and I will leave the monotonous activity I am tailored to. I will ruunnnnnnn from the AIRRRRRRRR conditioner blazing very cold, "winterous" air forced on me. Abeg, I will learn how to stay in cold when I travel to Canada, am sure I will put on some "heavy" thermal wear, gloves and good winter clothes and not just a simple short sleeve shirt- which cold penetrates without permission.

I will be with you tomorrow with some lessons God taught me yesterday.I am so excited to share because the story and revelation make me elated. I am glad I have GOD and know Him beyond some man-made doctrine....Please have a bite of my doughnut and sleep tight! I LOVE YOUUUUUU!!!

p/s: I hope we can hang out one of these days and catch some fun,real mad fun before i enter man house ooooo....GOD BLESS u and keep shinning for JESUS

Bonjour mes amies

Please join me for a delicious sumptuous,mouth watering breakfast with some dessert.

Here we go: A friend just sent a word that makes me jump in my spirit.It is PSALM 3v5 speaking thus "I lay down and slept.I woke up in safety, for the LORD was watching over me". Just last night, i shared with my brother and friend Anie that we take sleeping and waking up for granted, we forget we fall asleep and awake by FAITH.Science has no hand in this abilities save the LORD. Some actually go to rest (die)in their sleep but we are privileged to hear one programmed and mechanical human-invented alarm wake us up.We forget that God is the originator of sleep and waking up.We kinda depend on the alarm or we trust people to wake us up and we seldom think we sleep and wake by our volition.On the contrary, a bed side alarm helps 'cos i have one in my phone(ha ha) but I believe the LORD jostles us to our feet after watching over our almost lifeless bodies through the night. If we assign the duties to Him, God will wake us anytime we ask him to. Scriptures say;

"He that WATCHES over us neither sleeps nor slumbers"

He does the job of a night watchman though in His case, he never drifts off or does a shift job.God does not get tired of looking after a million people all at the same time.He will never call up Gabriel or any angel to take over duties from HIM.He is always PRESENT and GOD is not weary of watching over us,remember He has time in his hands.HE is TIME,he is not bound by human numberings....A million days is like one day to HIM. God is sovereign!
So the next time Satan comes rattling your sleep and making you afraid of the day, ALWAYS remember that the LORD sets your lying down and he orders your waking up.The Lord is your watchman not the "mai-guard" and "ete-watchee" at your gate.

Be ASSURED he is a wall round about you though a mob arises to attack you-he conquers the insurgence mounted against you and he shatters their handicraft.

He OMNIPOTENT and he will NEVER fail in his duties because HE IS SAFETY,he is all things at all times amen.

Bon appetite mes amies.

LOVER’s NOTE:

I’ll be for you a shinning star to illuminate your drifting feet.
I’ll soothe your soul to the tune of my undying love for you.
Your eardrums will find no rest, re-echoing my unexpressed tender care.
I’ll crush your lips with my kisses and will drown your figure with the sight of me.
I’ll keep you warm with an embrace of a million never fading love,
Be mine forever.

Je t'aime Beaucoup

Even if it takes my last breathe to speak,
If all that’s left of me is my left to hand to scribble words;
And I can only hear with my left ear,
Though my left heart alone palpitates,
And I produce sounds under my tongue.
Even if it’s the last drop of saliva left in my mouth or I become a one eyed man,
I will still be bold to look into you and say
I LOVE YOU my boo….

TE AMO...!!!

MY HEART BEAT

Anytime you walk across the hall my heart skips,
I can’t keep my eyes away from the wave of your body,
I follow your shadow till it fades.
My heart responds to the echoes of your shrilling voice;
Your melodious voice reverberates in my brain and sweeps me off my feet; I stagger like a drunken lover.
You are my new wine and my newly baked bread.
My hair stands on end because of your whispers.
My heart beats for your love.

MY LOVE BIRD

I will love you and not leave you,
Will keep you in my heart and not lose you.
I relish the day our eyes clicked,
My cheeks blushed into several colors.
I couldn’t hide I felt you, got attracted and my heartbeat quickened.
I’ll take you into my future, and my past will never matter.
I know we can travel miles together, we can walk the “red road” wrapped in one bond singing our love song
I love you babie….

MY PEARL

You know what I see each time I look into your eyes? I see me
And that explains my deepest love for you.
Each time I dig into my heart, I find reserved the biggest chunk of my being just for you.
I love you more than I can imagine and I pledge to love you ever my pearl.

Take my Heart and Love me Cherie!

I have absolutely nothing to loose. I have only my love to give, perhaps my heart to lose.
If I lose it, let it be found by you my love.
Take it, take it to the hills.
Have it, run with it to the far mountains and cherish it for just the two of us.
I want to keep it in your treasure as a valuable gem;
Am not afraid to lose my love to you as long as am sure its in your bosom.
Hold it, I say, have all of me for I know no other save you.
Pamper me my love; caress my love for its stored up for you.
Carry it in your laps for it soothes like balm then will you know am committed to you.
Go on and romance the only love I have for you after GOD.

My resolve is to love you till we turn gray, to bask the rain and bear the scorching sun together; to bear your load and wipe your tears is all I want to do.
And though we disagree and throw tantrums like children, we’ll makeup as friends and forge ahead.

I vow to be a friend, a mother, a sister, a confidant and wife.
Though the path is thorny with mutual differences, and encumbered by life's issues, we’ll stand strong as a team to win every battle with God as our Head Coach.
I choose you a zillion times over,
And I reiterate for the umpteenth time:
If I lose my heart, let it be to you my love.

Je t'aime MON CHERIE!

GOD AND ME this cool morning....

He called me TAMAR last night meaning an edible date palm, a tree which survives desert hostile environmental conditions but is a sweet nourishing fruit and beautiful to the eyes...hmm my emotions rocked and danced to hear such sweet compliments.
I called him my BOAZ and i just went through the Hebrew meaning of the name and it means Swiftness, strength , really is he?

I got a bit disturbed this morning and the wrong thing to do is to run to a man to solve the equations. I asked my second in command and he gave me some answers that made me scream like a recalcitrant child who walks away more feeling dejected....LORD you are my ever present help in time of need and no human counsel can solve the emotional issues i feel now.

Its YOU and ME now, not me and some wise sounding counsel. I think i need to stop looking for human approval and affirmation. I will gladly take those stringent rules and regimented counsel based on human experience but LORD did you not say "Let all men be liars and ONLY GOD be TRUE so what do I do in this case? I do not want to disobey my leaders and carry some consequences that will affect my relationship with you and men? So what do I do?

I need a clear cut instruction, remember you told me to obey the words in PSALM 32 vs 8? You said I, Eno not men, will lead and guide you, you said; "I will guide you along the best path way for your life. I will advise you and watch over you.???". Lord instruct your loving daughter.I know there is a place for counsel but human counsel will not outclass God's.

The reason we do not hear GOD is because we prefer to listen to men, we are not so disciplined to go into the inner chambers to seek GOD. Esther went in to meet the king against laid down laws.She broke the rules because she was in a desperate situation which the king alone could solve.Let us go to the king in the inner chamber away from strange voices and the noise of buying and selling, human inclinations and assumptions.All MUST fade away till we can hear the KING like Esther did. She left Mordecai behind as well as her aides/maids, we told them to pray though she listened to Mordecai's advise, she only capitalized on what she heard and that pushed her into HIS presence.
I will enter in and put an end to all the approval am too used to,i will quiet my spirit until i CAN HEAR him. Isaiah 30: 15 says;

"The Sovereign LORD, the HOLY One of Israel says; "Only in returning to me and WAITING for ME(GOD not man) will you be saved.In QUIETNESS and confidence is your strength." AMEN.

I have learned in my little life here that our relationship with God is so personal that one thing could be right for one and it's not a conviction for another. Example, i eat bread and my brother thinks bread is a sin. Even though Paul had said that for peace and the faith of weaker ones, we should try our best at giving up what will cause another man to sin. If my bread will cause my brother to sin, i have to stop eating bread.But again, i ask, won't this amount to living for everyone's conviction? If everyone will have a conviction and compel every other person to do as he thinks then LEGALISM sets in, Man-made laws and systems will be erected etc.

As i woke this morning,i read 2 Peter and then i found out that the things which pertain to "life and godliness" are not mystical, they are not outside of us, they live in us, they are the life of the Spirit. Jesus is health to my bones, he is my food and water.Does that not speak of him being me and me Him?If i am to know Jesus better and better,does it mean he is a LAW written on paper?Or he is a spirit with LIFE? I believe my knowledge of him on a daily basis must be birthed in me(that the mystery) just as Mary bore Jesus....by the power of the Most High and the power of the Spirit.Jesus is not a written down law, he is a spirit.

My thoughts are raving and roving, so don't mind if its sounding "jumbled up" and divided into forks- LOL....sorry friends. But in conclusion on all matters, llet MAN MADE laws not override the mind of God. Let us ALWAYS ask God what he expects us to do,seek GOD's will in every matter like mine, i am asking GOD what to do in this "anonymous, nameless " matter, sorry i have not mentioned the details of the matter plaguing my mind. I think I am just worrying and I sense that i should LIVE by FOLLOWING THE SPIRIT. I will talk about this matter comprehensively in days to come just stay tuned and don't feel crucify me for writing a script filled with suspense-i no bi film director or actor, abeg no vex people!!!

I implore my friends to plsssssssssssssss pray for me to hear GOD and not man.GRACIAS!

MY PROVERBS 32 MAN

A faithful man who can find? He is a gift...

He is God's custodian and his wife is blessed to have him.

He does not possess the mind of a wolf,

He is as gentle as a lamb.

He does not have the mission of a hawk; he has the heart of a caregiver.

He has not come to strip her innocence, but to tend her garden.

Though he has the body of the first Adam,

He has been recreated to resemble the second Adam.

He is far from the serpent that slithers through rocks and caves to cajole and deceive;

He is a dove bearing the symbol of peace.

You won't call him a woodpecker or a grasshopper, for he is a man of integrity who stands before the courts keeping every word he utters.

He is not a lion seeking to devour and conquer weaker vessels.

He is an honorable Son of Zion seeking to protect, pamper and watch her back at all times.



He is a man of one woman and wife;

Each time he uses the four letter word it comes from a pure heart.

He is not a vulture hopping from one crib to another, nor does he make empty promises to every woman he meets.

He does not have the flesh and blood of a womanizer but seeks a woman of his dreams.

He has no room nor time for the dating game but desires his "rib-bone"

and patiently waits for ONE he can call his wife.

God honors his faithfulness and enables him find a GOOD thing.



At the altar he kneels, making vows to the wife of his youth.



Though he is NOT a PERFECT MAN, he is a husband to BEHOLD.

He is a Husband of one wife, a Father to nations, a leader over his home

And a priest bearing God's mind and following His instructions.

Daily does he gather his household to seek the Lord and he is an example of Christ in his home and neighborhood.

He is a man of peace, endued with God's spirit, not given to strong drink or debauchery.

He provides for his family because God's right hand is upon him and helps the needy hence attracting God's blessings.

The faithful man arms himself with wise friends and workmen because he knows the company of fools leads to death.



He buys wisdom and stands for truth to guide him through life. He listens for God's voice and

never does he make a move based on his intuition.

He is a confident man and his wife adores respects and submits to him.

He respects her prayers and does nothing without her consent.

She speaks well of him before her friends, pats his back when his discouraged and calls him a gardener of a fruitful vine.



Through torrents and storms of life, through the rain and the sun, they are ever armed for the day of battle.

He will never brag in his wealth or glory in his abilities; he realizes that God is his Lord, His source and sure foundation.

On account of his unusual wisdom, he serves as the head of his extended family and he binds them together so that the oil which flows from his head flows harmoniously to their bosom.

By God's counsel, he serves as a teacher and is able to manage the needs of everyone he meets.

He is a rare gem, a sparkling light in darkness, submissive to God's authority.



There are many handsome and brilliant guys out there but faithful men are scare like DIAMOND

But the Lord still has a store house of great and honorable men who fearlessly love him, whom he will release to his handmaids.

Some maybe as ruddy as David, cheats like Jacob, as weak as Samson and every woman's man like Solomon

BUT GOD will TRANSFORM them to become trusted friends, gardeners, priests and husbands.





A man who walks with God is very desirable such I call the Proverbs 32 man.

Aujourd'hui...

Men some days feel like i should be with a man like last night...O! my i was so mushy mushy,i felt like a drunk, i had to wrap myself with a towel and cover two wrappers.I even told my friend whom i Love so much(i think he sensed it from the way i expressed myself).Oh well,i feel stupid but i think its not an unusual feel,i am laughing at myself cos GOD put the desire for a man there.
I wish one man or some witnesses could just call me and MAN to one small room and we wed so some desires like "sex" will be in its rightful place.I don't even want to ponder on the sexual thingy till I am in fellowship or should i say in consonance with God's idea for sex....MARRIAGE. But men, some nights can be tempting....I judge masturbation and lesbianism,its a NO GO AREA amen.Not even sex with my bosom friend, LORD i won't trespass with ya help alone o cos its easier said when you have no man around or when riff-raffs come around toasting BUT when a man you love sits around you, and stretches his body, then you take a hard look at his biceps- you dream of having a deep hug and some caress,watch the movement of his lips-you dream of kissing and the thoughts go on and on to areas I don't wanna conceptualize.I think its a sweet feeling to have that man but its BEST in marriage.I want to wait lest guilt rocks my boat!!!

The mushy feeling didn't just go,but i was bold enough to tell GOD how i felt.On my way to work i was thinking of just one man...one i love, one i choose to love despite the flaws and past mistakes.I love him as he is and i prayed in my bathroom that God will help me truly LOVE and love without reservations.And some word i believe came as an impression by the spirit is; "HE MAKES ALL THINGS BEAUTIFUL IN HIS TIME".
I will undo all the fears and choose to abide in God's embers.

God created the heavens and the earth out of a void,he formed something out of nothing and made life from the dust of the ground, I so trust GOD to make this unbecoming man and situation into a promising and potential personality.
I remember my sister commented on my note last week saying;"May God grant you 'a diamond' whom you can support through the transformation from rough & dirty to your Proverbs 32 man, in Jesus name, Amen!.You may wonder where Proverbs 32 comes from?I have a note on him which i will post soon.
I now believe that he is not a perfect ROLLS ROYCE or an expensive BENTLEY,or a state of the art WHITE HOUSE,he is a man formed from the dust, as dry as the bones in the valley,as despised as 'lil David yet i see him as my priest, my king and my husband.
I will wait.I will stand by him except God says he is not worth my time.I know he will make a good husband and who says he is a heap of rubble? Did Christ not die for him as well?Who is that man that's refused to bury his hatchet on account of this man's mistakes? Let such a man raise a stone against him and prove to me that he is GOD?Even God still wants such to come to repentance, even God loves this soul.
I just pray to love all the council of men and Sanhedrin who sit around to pass judgment.I pray not to bear a grudge or hold aughts against them.I pray to LOVE them that cast a stone on him....

Well, i pray to truly love to the point where i find no fear or harbor doubts.I will trust God all the way in this matter amen.
I think the mushy feeling has something to do with the weather...well i shall endure to the end(smiling),amennnnnnn

Back to my old lover....

...I have fought to keep my blog alive and finally I succeeded.I had to obey my boo's reprimand to keep my "BB" away and develop myself.He blew me below the belt, instead of the blow to leave me in pains,i began to run like BEN JOHNSON....I woke up to a new week with a resolution to educate and upgrade myself.My BB is the addictive 'lil gadget, which can turn good marriages into a boxing ground and can make one lose a trusted friend.It can keep you hooked(as though its cocaine), it can turn you to a "binger" as though its junk food.It is the Black berry,its so addictive and since Sunday,i have fought to leave it in my hand bag while i look for other ways of keeping busy.So back to my books, Bible, God and all my BLOG!

It's so embarrassing to find my blog waiting for me all this months?Its been one year dear blog and i wish to apologize for all my negligence,for been so insensitive and perhaps self centered.I have been so occupied with one lil brat who claims to love me yet saps my time,money and progress.That lil brat has a way of occupying me for hours on end doing nothing but face book, pinging and yahooing.I need my life and myself back,i need my hobby back and my joy back hence I RETURN to you.
I am back to renew old ties, i am here on my knees weeping remorseful tears and saying I will not leave you a minute.I will always dote around you,keep you dear to my heart,pamper you,lubricate and romance you with my words. I was just too myopic to see the benefits of having you,the fact that you harnessed my skills and opened my eyes to my worth.I am worth RUBIES and GOLD,i am very skillful and possess the tongue of a learned writer.
I trust that you will receive me in LOVE and find a place in your heart to forgive me and trust me all the way.I just realized you are bigger than one thousand words and you have room enough for straying lovers like me.
Thank you for having me back on board.I am pleased to renew my BLOG. I love you so much and will always write on you....GOD BLESS and expect more from me....